Dear Bandru’s Best Friend

Dear Bandru’s Best friend,

The start we had was no where near a good one, I was a bit off that day.

Eh! Let’s be honest, I was horrible that day, I was making fun of Bandru, was not paying much attention to Bandru, my jokes were insensitive and the flaws in my behavior that day were extremely easy to find out and very HIGH in number too.

This is not an attempt to butter you up! I know how much you matter to Bandru and if someone is so special for her, they are special for me too.

Today, I will try to express what I really feel for Bandru, yes I said it! I will TRY.

Bandru is the only human being who has never doubted my abilities, she is the one who has always been on my side, always trusted my instincts.

I often claim that I love her a lot but you know what? There is one more feeling that I have for her which is equally strong, RESPECT.

I have huge amount of respect for her for multiple reasons.

  1. She has managed to give me enough TIME and UNENDING LOVE in spite of all the problems that came in between.
  2. Bandru’s simplicity and her honesty has created a strong wall of trust which borne the weight of those few months when we were completely out of touch, this was when we were at very early stages of what we have today. I always knew that one day I will get a text back from her for sure.

Bandru, is a responsible girl. I can trust her with one of my most priciest possessions and she would walk a tight rope while reading two books at the same time without letting my possession out of her sight. (The example is flawed as SHE is the most precious thing I have ever had by my side.)

I was a cellphone geek, I remember spending every rupee of my allowance and my earnings on my cell phones. Guess who taught me the art of being satisfied with what you have? Bandru!

Bandru has always inspired me, motivated me to do, to attempt what I could only dream of doing without her.

Am I any good for her?

I have not been an ideal partner at times but the strong feeling of Love that I have for her is as strong as a I feel for the ones in my family. Heck! She is family.

I have had nightmares, nightmares where Bandru get a small paper cut.

A slightest of scratch to her bothers me, with one sneeze I start telling her names of all drugs that I have learnt that could help her with the cold. Her fever often ends up giving me shivers. In a nutshell, I care for her like crazy!

Since a few days my phone was acting extremely and finally it got water damaged, Bandru wanted to Duo that night, I ran to a store at around 10 in the night and bought a phone out of my savings so that we could talk normally without any interruptions. ( I know She is going to get angry at me after reading this but just because she cares.)

After butchering up our first in person meeting, hope this virtual conversation would put me in a better light.

I generally end my letters with “Lots of Love, Bada Bandar.” Today I will end with

Lots of Love and Apologies,

That crazy guy, your Best Friend is with.

 

 

29th June – Twice a Day

The purity in your love is amazing and calming.

Dear Bandru,

How much I love you and feel for you is something that I have talked a lot about in the last 15 days. 

Today, I want to talk about WHY?

You are one of the most mature, understanding girl I have ever seen. 

Your simplicity takes me away from the superficial world out there.

The ease with which you understand my reasonable and unreasonable wishes is amazing.

The purity in your love is amazing and calming.

The understanding in your touch is something that I want to feel for my whole life.

Another one is coming soon! 
Lots of Love,

Bada Bandar

29th June – Bandru

What is the point of writing this?

My love for you and your love for me.

Dear Bandru,

I am in love with the first image I have of you in my mind.

You, the long pretty hair tied up in a bun, a bunch of books in your hand.

As you walked out of the house, came out of the dark, I knew I wanted to know you.

Love at first sight is something I do not believe much in but the moment I saw you, I felt presence of a spark that would exist between us if we talked.

That spark brought us together and the love that took birth between us will keep us together forever.

What is the point of writing this?

My love for you and your love for me.

Lots of love,

Bada Bandar.

28th June – Happy

Being with you is Happiness! 

Dear Bandru,

After a couple of bad days, we are back to our “madly in love” place. I honestly do not want to have a fight anymore.

The distance between us is enough toiling, we don’t need fights to make the distance more difficult. 

I am scared about next coming weekend, your next visit to some place with your friends. I am scared of the upcoming fights, of the troubles, of the issues, of the sad nights.

 Inspite of all the painful things, the happiness of being with you overpowers all the sadness and fears. I hope this weekend comes with happiness and  opportunities of making good memories.

Being with you is Happiness! 

 Lots of love,

Bada Bandar

26th June – Giving a rat’s posterior¬†

Dear Bandru, 

In our lives, we care about people, who are close to our hearts. Sometimes we fight with the same people, we even scream at them, get pissed at them for no real reason and hurt them too. 

Sometimes we realize our mistakes and apologize to them. Sometimes they accept the apology and sometimes we don’t. 

It’s not like we are always on the wrong, always mistaken but we choose to apologize because we care for them, hurting them is sad for  us too. 

When we keep apologising for our behavior regardless of being right or wrong. Someday the people we care about may start to feel that not matter whether they are right or wrong, we will apologize for everything. 

Do you know what happens after this? 

The people we care for start losing faith in us and the amount of care we have for them slowly decrease. 

How does this affect the relationship we share with the people care about? 

The relationship starts weakening, faith starts fading and love starts wearing off. No promises stand after the love is completely worn off.

Recently, we have been fighting a lot, rather I have been screaming at you for no real reason. I don’t want us to reach a stage where “Love starts fading off.” 

I have immense love and respect for you, I want us to stay at the happy stage we were, not at the place where we are today thinking whether or not we are right for each other. 

Has the love we share worn off? 

Are we at the stage of losing each other? 

I, most certainly am not. Are you? 

You are a huge part of my life and a major reason for presence of happiness in my life, loosing you is not a loss that I can afford, I will never be rich enough to be able to afford loosing you. 

I wish and pray for us to stay together forever. 

Lots of Love,

Bada Bandar

24th June – Walls

Our love will never end but will grow stronger every day and I want the relationship built on the love to grow stronger too. 

Dear Bandru, 

We live in a world of walls. I am not talking about the brick walls, no! Not even the glass or wooden walls. I am talking about the walls that we build around us, emotional walls. Walls that we build around us to keep us protected from emotional stress and for a lot of other reason. 

Why am I talking about this today? 

I want to let you know that you dont need to have such a wall for me. You have complete right to be emotionally vulnerable and open with me. 

Again, why this today? 

We have spent a lot of time together, more than most of the couples manage to maintain their relationships for and at the stage we are today, we dont need any inhibitions between us. 

We are never going to get separated, I know that. We don’t have to hold tight just to keep US together that means now is the time we start working on our beautiful relationship to make it even more strong.

Our love will never end but will grow stronger every day and I want the relationship built on the love to grow stronger too. 

How? 

I have expressed my feelings and need your help to get this How answered. 

Lots of Love, 

Bada Bandar

23rd June – Loving You

One day, you will get a notification on your cell phone Bada Bandar is coming to visit  you, you will press the accept button and I would come out of the phone to hug you! 

Dear bandru, 

The happiness I get when I see you is unexplainable in words. I just keep on smiling and I can keep doing that for hours. 

Looking at you across the cell phone is a painful and happy experience at the same time. I feel glad that I am able to talk you face to face but feel sad at the same time because no matter how close we are I just can’t touch you. 

One day, you will get a notification on your cell phone Bada Bandar is coming to visit  you, you will press the accept button and I would come out of the phone to hug you! 

Loving you is an amazing experience, in the process of loving you I have discovered myself, my passion. In the process of loving you I have got the courage to persue my passion. Loving you has made me love everything and everyone else more. Loving you has taught me to trust again. Loving you has brought me back to my life. 

I used to love you, I love you and will always love you. 

Lots of Love, 

Bada Bandar

22nd June – One Month

You know the happily ever after stories? Ours will be one of those.

Dear bandru,

It has been month since you have left for the land far far away.  Since the day you have left, I have become extremely paranoid about everything. From you running away to someone else stealing your heart, each of these thought and other zillion thoughts similar to these have crossed my mind. 

Somewhere deep down I know, you will be there forever.

I really hope these two years to go by similarly, in happiness and love. After the two years, you will be in my arms forever. After that day we won’t need any video calling apps, IMs and cell phones to say the thousands of I Love Yous we say in a day!

You know the happily ever after stories? Ours will be one of those.

Lots of Love,

Bada Bandar

21st June -??? 

Nothing in the world is perfect but that does not mean we should stop working towards achieving the perfection. 

Dear Bandru,

After our last phone conversation, we figured out that there are a few gaps that we need to fill.

I need to stay calm and you will have to start using words to express what you feel.

I am saying here that we need to work on somethings but that does not mean we are failing.

Bandru, we have been together for quite a few years now. Do you know what that means? We have been together through a lot of ups and downs. The love we share is strong and the bond we share is rock solid, it will always be.

Nothing in the world is perfect but that does not mean we should stop working towards achieving the perfection.

Lots of Love,

Bada bandar.